Long Distance Relationships

Thanks to the dual evils of menstruation and essay writing I’m not feeling too great now. In order to distract myself from a one-woman pity party (and to stop bothering R whilst he does his taxes) I’m going to write a blog post.

Erm, hi?

I’ve spent the last couple of days in such a bad mood, it’s most likely due to angry late period hormones, but it’s been really bringing me down. At the moment I’m trying to set myself small goals so that I can work through everything that I need to do. This essay WILL be sent of by the time I have my next shift at work (Sunday) and then next week I can concentrate on blitzing my driving theory and more trips to the dentist.

I should be celebrating four years of TDB, but I’m sorry to say that I’m just not feeling it. I reckon in a couple of weeks I’ll be feeling much better but right now I’m in a bit of a slump. I’m going through one of those phases were I hate, hate, hate my job… it makes me feel like crap to be constantly belittled and spoken down to.

This is a blog about mental health, and about my personal life, so I think it’s okay for me to whine a little.

We’re getting closer and closer to R leaving the country, April is really going to be the last month that I can stick my head in the sand and pretend it’s not happening. It’s going to be so weird to move back in with my parents full-time, and to sleep alone again. It sounds strange but night is the worst time, when he’s been overseas before I’ve had so much trouble sleeping. I hate how lonely and pathetic I feel.

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Sometimes I feel angry at all of the people who get to live in the same country as their partner. It’s silly and selfish but it’s what I feel and trying to deny it isn’t going to make me feel any better.

I have a small list of goals for the year that we’re going to be apart. I might fill you in on them soon, but that’s for another post. Right now it’s time for chocolate, tears and sympathy.

A good friend of mine told me a couple of years ago that men didn’t approach me because I gave off a vibe that I didn’t need anyone. I have a lot of friends, I love people and get on easily with 90% of the population; however, I don’t really have any really close friends. R is my best friend, that’s the bedrock of our relationship.

I’m a happy, fulfilled person without R, I have a good time when he’s away and I can function perfectly well; but when I’m with him I feel 10x more confident, relaxed and happy. He makes me a better person, he makes me see the good in things and I’ll never be able to thank him enough for that.

Wow, I think that’s the most sentimental thing I’ve ever written here… blame the painkillers??!

’til tomorrow,

Wren x

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5 thoughts on “Long Distance Relationships

    • Thank you, I’ve been putting off talking about it for ages, but if I can’t talk about it on here then where can I? Originally we were going to be apart for three years, but we managed to get it down to one. I should be happy but it still feels so daunting. You and J seem like you have a really great relationship, I wish you all the happiness for the future! Xxx

      • Long distance is so tough but also very rewarding. J and I are planning soon to trial me living with him for six months, and I am so hoping that it goes well. Best of luck to you and him, I hope it is a quick separation and you’re back with him before you know it. x

  1. I so hear you!

    My partner is on the other side of the planet right now and while, yes I can function and all without him it still isn’t the same. It sometimes almost kills me to be doing all those cool things and to be seeing all these amazing places without him. I just want to show off this world and share the memory.

    Try to send each other silly little stuff and pictures online whenever you think of him, it’s a small thing but it helps!

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