Children are brought up to see the world in black and white. I think it’s probably because it’s easier that way, but I know that as I got older and older I started to struggle with the way that I was seeing the world. More and more situations were being presented to me that I didn’t understand, or that I didn’t have the moral knowledge to deal with.
It was then that I started to realise that the world couldn’t be as simple as people had first explained it to me.
My primary school wasn’t officially ‘Christian’ but it still taught that God made the world in seven days and we sang hymns in assembly. I was brought up with the Bible and ‘Christian values’ and I never really questioned it.
I was lucky enough to find Paganism when I was about eleven and immediately agreed with its ‘grey’ morality. I’ve always had a strong sense that things in life aren’t clear-cut, they’re complex and difficult and to try and live by black and white values will only cause you pain and frustration.
I’ve recently been watching a programme that has brought my ideas of morality to the forefront of my mind, it’s called ‘Life and Death Row’ and has been shown on BBC3 here in the UK. If you’re able to then I would highly suggest watching that- actually, no, stop reading this right now and go and watch it. It’s probably one of the most unsettling and thought provoking things that I have ever seen and that I think I will ever see.
As humans we seem to create a morality that tells us that we shouldn’t feel the things that we feel- the Bible makes it clear that we shouldn’t be lustful or envious or greedy, this means that when we do feel these emotions we also feel guilt.
I don’t know about you but I don’t think this is right- I love Paganism because it accepts that humans do feel these things, that we do commit terrible acts and ‘sinful’ things. It accepts that sometimes we want things that we shouldn’t- and it says that that’s okay.
I’ve never personally liked the idea of ‘white magick’ I don’t think there’s such a thing. The universe needs a balance of bad and good in order to function. If you don’t have one then how can you ever hope to recognise the other? It’s wishful thinking to pretend that something can be wholly good or wholly bad, we wouldn’t live in the society that we do if that were the case.
Don’t be afraid of the dark, it has its place in our world as much as the light does. Don’t allow it to dominate your thoughts or worries- it’s no more powerful that the light, it’s just necessary. Embrace what you fear, embrace what you love; we live in a world of grey- and the more you think about it the more you realise how amazing it is.